automatic writing

at the moment it feels like no matter how dilligent [diligent] I am, and how much I try to follow good habits, plan things in advance, and make good decisions, I always miss something important that ends up overshadowing everyhting [everything] else.

[also], the most arbitrary of mistakes has made me feel like this, which is probably the most ridiculous aspect of how I'm feeling [it].

I just hope I have enough money in time for when I need it, and that I can find a job to support me later on, and that I don't get complacent now, and so many other things that I'm spending most of my time stressing about the tiny details that probably won't have any bearing on the situation anyway.

argh!